Sooo, I quit my job last Friday.
I know what you must be thinking. More details, please? Because, let’s be real: what I just described to you does sound crazy. Crazy, neurotic, insane, deranged. I could list a ton more crazy synonyms, because believe me, I guarantee the thoughts that are probably running through your mind have already ran through mine.
This was not a decision I took lightly. This was a decision Derek and I have been contemplating together for quite some time now, and a secret I have been wanting to let you in on for a while. See, long story short, as much as I loved the company I was working for and the people I was working with, the role I was in was not a good fit.
Combine those reasons with a few others I won’t dare bore you with and after much deliberation, I made the decision to let change swoop in and pave the way for me to move on and march forward.
If there was one thing my mom always preached to my sisters and me growing up it was not to ever settle. Despite the fact she’d usually pepper in this guidance when picking up the pieces of our “broken” hearts due to teenage-boy problems, I still to this day find these wise words damn good advice when it comes to life and everything else in between.
Some people are lucky and know what they want to do with “the rest of their lives” from a very early age. Whether it be a teacher, nurse, doctor, professional athlete — you get the idea. As you might have already guessed, I am not one of these people.
Ever since I entered the “real world” three years ago, I have been on the hunt for more than just a paycheck, but rather a career I am passionate about. One I find meaningful, stimulating, and extra fulfilling. And while I have been fortunate enough to work at two awesome companies thus far — ones I adore even outside of working hours — the piece of the puzzle I’ve been missing is the passion and interest behind each role.
And yes, I know there are no perfect jobs. But the truth is, I am not looking for the perfect job. I know with any job — even your dream job — there will be tasks attached that aren’t so appealing. That’s fine. That’s reality. I get that.
But, I also know when it’s time to move on.
So many people find themselves “stuck” in these mundane jobs that they don’t even enjoy, not knowing how or when to make a change. They numb their dreams with thoughts like “Once I get “x”, I will make a change,” or “If only I had “x”, I could then do “y””, but if they only knew that little voice was fear talking. And we all know how big of a bully fear can be.
However, I refuse to settle. You hear that mom?!
I refuse to let fear creep its way into my mind and suppress my hope of finding that meaningful career path I’m been seeking since leaving life on college campus.
I know it’s out there; I can feel it. And I know I’m getting closer and closer with every trial-and-error.
Just like with so many things in life, sometimes the hardest part is getting started.
And the hardest part about getting started? Finding out how to even start and bring about needed change.
For me, this has meant spending a lot of time pinpointing what makes me happy. What do I enjoy doing? If I could have my dream job handed to me on a silver platter, what would that job even be?
So, what did I do?
Well, let’s see. I made lists. I sought out advice from friends and family. I asked myself. I did basically everything those “How to Find Your Passion” books advise you to do, and then I had that aha! eureka moment.
Writing. Yes, writing!
It’s as if the answer has been written on the walls for years, and I’ve never taken that hunch seriously. But the more I ponder about the happiness question, the more I end up at the same conclusion: writing.
Think about it: there is so much you can do with words.
Connecting. Storytelling. Ultimately, inspiring others.
I guess one of the reasons I never considered embarking on the editorial path is because I’ve never thought of myself as a writer. I really enjoy writing, but a writer? Nah.
And yet, why not?
Why not take a chance and see where this path could lead? How will I ever know where this journey could take me if I never take the chance? And if not now, then when?
So, Now What?
Starting today I am taking the dive into the pool of freelancing. So what does that mean exactly? Well, to put it lightly, I am seeking out any and every opportunity to flex my writing muscles and become a stronger writer. While I have several opportunities lined up to assist in building my strength which I am super excited for, I’d be lying if I said I have it all figured out.
What I do know is life is short and goes by way too fast. Unfortunately, time never slows down, so if I don’t take control and start putting in the work to pursue my dreams, life is only going to fly by even faster.
While this new chapter will be anything but easy, I know if I keep marching forward, it will be worth it and it will be yet another stepping stone to lead me to where I’m supposed to be.
Feeling All the Feels
There is a whirlpool of emotions taking place in my mind right about now swirling in all directions.
I’m excited. I’m eager. I’m anxious. I’m nervous. I’m definitely feeling all the feels.
But I am certain about one thing: right now, this feels right. And as scary as the unknown can be, I somehow have more of a peace of mind now than I had with either one of my previous jobs, which tells me I am on the right path.
Things Will Work Out
At the end of the day, I must give myself permission to not have all the answers, and remind myself everything is going to be OK. Things will work out. And if they don’t, well at least I know I took the risk and I will be one step closer to figuring it all out.
Do I have a lot of hard-work ahead of me? Heck yes I do. But I’m ready to take it on each new obstacle, one day at a time.
Cheers to celebrating the small victories!
Is there a dream you want to pursue but you’re not quite sure how to take the leap? Feel free to leave your thoughts in the comment box below. By no means am I an expert, but I would love to offer any advise I have, as well as hear any advise you have to offer.